Ewan -
7! I vividly remember being so excited to turn 7 and I love seeing that in you - what is it about 7?! Is the world coming into focus enough that you understand the freedom each new year brings, is it the promise of another year of exciting adventures, or is it the simple expectation of cake and presents?
Baby boy, you are smart, sensitive, and sweet. Your heart is so big and you give so much to the world. You love science, are thoughtful about the world, and ask the best questions - still this often occurs in the car when it’s quiet and you have a moment to think. I think you worry a little too much, and you feel all the feels, both likely my fault, but how these qualities manifest into the sweet boy you are makes our hearts swell.
The influences of the “cool kids” and what the world of parents and teachers and coaches want of you can seem heavy at times, but I love talking to you about how this is all preparing you for the world and the choices you’ll get to make about your life, and that the real goal is to become a good man... and then I imagine you 6 feet 5 inches, 230 lbs, with a deep voice, and I am overwhelmed with who I can see and feel you becoming.
Our biggest struggle this year, and probably the only regret I have as your Mom, is that you didn’t get the patience you deserved from us... you always mean the best so why can’t I take a deep breath and offer you a little more room to be a kid - I promise I am working on it and I appreciate you talking through it with me and the support you give me as I try to be the mom you deserve. This year we moved and nearly finished our new house, Dad got a new job, Sis started a new preschool, my Mom died, my work was hard, your adjustment to 1st grade was unexpected, and then there was just the usual life juggles - it was hard and seeing that stress catch up with all of us was eye opening.
We did also take time for fun and explored Australia and New Zealand where your passion for Natural History came clear for you in all those museums. You played tennis and soccer, swam, joined cub scouts, and started little league while improving as an independent reader and rocking math. Your new year’s resolution shows just how much you love science as you assigned yourself a topic to dive deep on each month - March is naturally Natural History, your favorite.
You make the world better, Ewan, and while you struggle a little with what you bring to the world and how to relate to other 7 year olds that don’t understand the complicated and creative games you makeup the lessons you are learning about being you and finding the people that do understand you will serve you.
As we say at the end of any story that has some vein of something not going your way... whose got your back baby? That’s right, it’s Mama - everyday of my life I promise to have your back. Let’s see what your 8th year has in store.
Love,
Mama
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